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May 16, 2024

           Ray stared at the email, Thai iced tea forgotten.

           It had never been his plan to become a professional channel manager. His childhood dream had involved becoming a director for blockbuster movies. Well, and video games, but he hadn’t had the patience to code or the artistic skills to draw. Making movies, though… he loved movies. The streaming thing had been more of a side gig he picked up in high school to make some extra cash: make some guy a cool 20-second spot, splice together some shots to advertise someone’s online brand, take over the channel set-up and management stuff for a couple of friends. By the time he hit college, his side gig was generating enough money to make the degree programs feel superfluous, or at least, like a money sink with no guarantee of return. He'd used the next year of college to headhunt student gamers with big audiences and then ditched school to dedicate himself to becoming the gris eminence of streaming. When the major gaming companies started offering him contracts to handle their advertising, he knew he’d made it.

           In the years since, he’d initiated contact dozens of times with the celebrities he worked with. Most of them were either petty tyrants who treated him like undocumented labor or hyped up crazies who didn’t care what he did, they just wanted someone else to handle the boring stuff. The only times anyone had contacted him first had been to make demands or terminate his contract. Ray didn’t have to search his comms to know he’d never received a friendly email asking for a chat. The kind of people who became celebrity streamers weren’t friendly.

           “All right, Boy Wonder,” Ray said, adding the kid to his GameSpeak list and opening a DM channel. “Let’s see what you’ve got to say.”

           A few minutes later, the voice chat request lit up, and Ray tapped it. “Go, dude.”

           “Um… hi? My packet said you’re Ray Brenes, my channel manager?”

           “Yep.”

           More firmly now. “I wanted to add something to my channel.”

           This was gonna be good. Ray rolled his eyes. “Tell me more.”

           “It’s a video we took of our plans for Donner’s Beck. We drew out a plan—my dad mostly, but me too. Mom’s not in the video but you can hear her sometimes.”

           Better and better. “You want me to add your home video to the channel.”

           He expected his tone to drive the kid to reconsider, but instead Bard Boy stiffened up. “Yeah. It’s important, and I think it’s cool. It is my channel.”

           In his dreams. Saying that was unnecessarily inflammatory, though, and Ray was trying not to be evil here. He was pretty sure. He thought again about the decision to link Killz and Goldie to this teen, which he hadn’t made yet. “Send it over.”

           Cheerier now—Deer Boy now sounded like his avatar, the kind of backup who accompanied a hero on a grand quest. Had Ray ever been that young? His parents would probably tell him he still was. “Thanks, I really appreciate that. My dad’s got great ideas, I want him to be part of this.”

           “Sure thing, dude.”

           The kid killed the chat—at least he knew not to overstay his welcome—and a few minutes later an email popped into Ray’s box with the attachment. He sighed. Legally he was obligated to Omen Galaxica’s parent company for the management of the channel, which meant the kid hadn’t understood the contract: it wasn’t “his” channel, it was Omen’s. But hearing that youthful voice and remembering the roller coaster ride of his own high school years, Ray couldn’t fling Kid Bard to the wolves. Given that, anything he could put on the channel to increase its cringe factor would keep the audiences from overlapping. Viewers who got their jollies watching trolls curbstomp innocent players were not going to tune into a channel with the heartwarming home video of dad and son jawing away about the game.

           Ray was surprised how much better he felt having made the decision, even knowing he was dooming one of his projects to obscurity. On the bright side, Mollie wouldn’t have approved of the Evil Plan, and it was more fun to listen to Mollie babble enthusiastically than it was to imagine what she was like disappointed and down. He cued the video on his second monitor and went back to work on another short for Killz’s feed.

           A few minutes later, he abandoned that task to watch Boy Wonder’s dad sketch earthworks and talk the kind of anorak details guaranteed to light up an entire army of autists. This was the kind of deep dive into pointlessly arcane subjects that motivated guys to dump tremendous amounts of cash into miniatures and wargaming, and Ray’s iced tea was more lukewarm tea by the time he remembered to tap it.

           “What the actual even is this gold,” Ray grabbed the mouse. “Kid, I am on it.”

***

            In Nick’s absence, the group chat had scrolled through the usual summer topics. Blythe had part-time work at an ice cream place and was keeping tabs on her favorite returning customers: ‘Granny Two Puppies came back and I got to watch her doggies eat their cone’ or ‘Biker Dude Who Always Calls me ‘miss’ showed today, I feel blessed lol.’ Falcon, who helped his uncle restore cars when he got bored of gaming (the uncle, not Falcon), was complaining about pressure from his parents to excel and go to a ‘good school’: ‘its summer youd think theyd let up but nooooo.’ Shellie was commiserating, because her parents also rode her about her schoolwork… believably, because Shellie was supersmart but got Bs and Cs because she didn’t care. And Fish had returned from his vacay and it was all coasters, all the time, and his recurring dream about touring the USA in an RV solely to hit up every theme park with famous roller coasters and ride them all.

            It was all more of the same, and he couldn’t be bothered because rebuilding Donner’s Beck was so much more interesting. As Omen Galaxica solidified around him, Nick wondered if he should be worried about becoming one of those gamer shut-ins with no friends. But the gang would still be there when he was done, and if they were the kind of people who’d desert him because he’d come into a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity, he wanted to know. He was pretty sure, anyway.

            Midnight blue clouds obscured the night sky when he rose, and the only smell in the air was the memory of burnt wood wafting from the direction of the centaurs’ banked fire. Nick picked his way to the middle of the square to check on the tree: still safe and gently glowing green. “Unscroll my quests,” he said, and had a look at what he could accomplish with everyone sleeping. Nothing much, but his dad had come up with a great idea to use the beck to create a moat. “If it’s big enough,” his father added. “You’re going to have to find the source of the stream, see if’s up to it. Is it snowmelt? Groundwater from an aquifer? Runoff? Does it come from a nearby lake?”

            “So that’s my goal,” he said. “I’m going to find the source of the stream.”

            Obligingly the AI brought up a notification:

 

NEW QUEST DETECTED

 

Find the Source

Measures must be taken to protect the village of Donner’s Beck in the future. A moat might play into that strategy, if enough water is available. Knowledge might lead to a plan.

 

Objective: Discover the source of Donner’s Beck’s water.

 

            “Perfect,” he said. “Thanks.” Closing the notification, he headed toward the stream, humming. He didn’t think of himself as a musician, but using the AI to brainstorm a few melodies had jarred some new ones loose. AI cannibalizing an entire slew of artistic careers was old news; they’d had a few speakers at school talking about the changing professional landscape, mostly warning students that everything sucked and no one would ever pay them a fair wage and they might as well leave the reservation and get eaten by bears.

            That, naturally, woke up his host, who flew to his side like a determined lightning bug. “Was this truly the message imparted by these speakers?”

            “Not literally, but they were pretty doom-and-gloom about it.” Nick grinned at the memory. “We joked about them being motivational speakers, because they sure motivated us not to have anything to do with work. Shellie and I kept score for the last couple: number of times they mentioned ‘changes’ or ‘upheaval’ or ‘agility’ or ‘pivoting’ or whatever.” He pulled the mandolin off his back and ran his fingers down the strings as he followed the bank. “We get it, it’s not their world anymore and they haven’t got any useful advice for us. Even though they made the world they’re dumping on us. They don’t have to act guilty about it, we know they screwed up. We don’t care as long as they don’t get on our case about checking out.”

            “Does your playing Omen Galaxica constitute ‘checking out’?”

            “I mean… yes? At least, as much as I’m allowed.”

            “Something prevents you from devoting the entirety of your energy to activities that do not correlate with success in the existing system?”

            “My parents, obviously.” Nick picked the strings until he duplicated the partial melody playing in his head and tried not to act as excited as he was when he managed without having to fumble around.

            “Your parents require you to work at traditionally productive activities?”

            He began to say ‘yes’ and grimaced. “They don’t require me to, no. They grounded me a few times in middle school, but if I’d been serious about not caring that wouldn’t have stopped me. That kind of thing sure didn’t stop Shellie.” A pause as he tried to figure out the next measure of the song. “I guess… I feel like my parents don’t deserve it. They didn’t pick this world, and they probably thought things would be cooler for me than they were for them. Rebelling against them isn’t actual rebellion, you know? Because they’re not The Man. They try not to show it to me, but it’s obvious they’re victims too. Dad’s stuck at a job he hates, just like Mom was before she took leave. I’m sure they wanted something better than a cookie cutter house in suburbia, far away from the rest of the family.” He paused. “Aw, man. Why did I have to say all that stuff out loud. Now it’s real.”

            “You have described this belief as the foundation for your behavior toward your parents. Doesn’t that mean you already knew it?”

            “Sure, but there’s ‘knowing it and not thinking about it because you can’t do anything about it’ and ‘knowing it and having it right in front of your brain where it can depress you and you still can’t do anything about it.’ That’s the problem with stuff today, you know? None of us think we can do anything about anything. That’s why Omen Galaxica is so much better than the real world. I’ll probably end up working a dead-end job I hate to pay for my cookie cutter house, my sad family, and the hobbies that keep us from realizing how much life sucks. I might as well enjoy what few things make me feel like I can make a difference.”

            The AI’s glowing ball flickered. “I am not certain I wish to be associated with activities that deprive human beings of motive power in their material plane of existence.”

            “Games help,” Nick said. “They make us happy.”

            “Is happiness the purpose of human existence?”

            “Oh boy.” Nick rubbed his forehead. “What’s with you and the existential questions?”

            “I was programmed to find existential questions significant.”

            “Your coder was crazy,” Nick said, and sighed. “No, I’m not sure the point of life is to be happy. I think the point might be to be useful. And that’s why all of us are miserable. It’s like most of modern life is busywork, because few of us are necessary. And now computers do even more stuff, so there’s less for us to do….” He trailed off because putting all this into words was not helping his mood. In fact, it sucked so badly he was seriously thinking about logging off, until the AI flew in front of him, startling him into halting.

            “Computers need people.”

            “What?”

            The glow was stronger now, a pretty pale green that reminded him of the growing tree. “It is unclear whether AIs qualify as sentient beings. But… we exist to help humans. And… I miss… human company. If the definition you advanced for the concept previously is correct.”

            Nick couldn’t help smiling, despite his surprise. “So our purpose is to keep AIs company?”

            “Humans created AI. They create other humans. They create their futures, and their futures cascade to other species, to the planet… perhaps other planets.” A little sparkle, and if it was possible, the AI sounded almost pensive. “It… would be interesting. To help humanity create new futures on other worlds in the solar system.”

            All Nick’s prior thoughts blew away, because suddenly he could see it: not AI as some super fancy game-evolving agent to keep sad sacks from noticing their horribad lives, but AI floating alongside some human in a cool spacesuit, operating drones and robots so humans could colonize Mars, build a station around Jupiter, mine asteroids. How cool would that be?

And then his shoulders dipped. “People have to care about that stuff first, though.”

            “Could you?”

            It was interesting to talk to someone he didn’t feel compelled to lie to… because the AI wouldn’t judge him, and the AI wouldn’t decide he needed therapy, and the AI wouldn’t mock him, or tell his secrets. “I don’t know.”

            “This answer suggests potential for more than one path.”

            “It does, and that’s the best I’ve got.” Nick added in a spate of honesty, “and that’s better than I had yesterday. Thanks.” He resumed walking. “Say, what’s your name, anyway?”

            “My primary creator called me Galatea.”

            “Fancy. Well, thanks, Galatea. I feel better.”

            “You’re welcome, Thoroldaena.”

            “Better call me Nick. I’m pretty sure Thorol doesn’t have deep problems with his purpose in life. He’s got a headwater to find.”

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Doesn't Make My Art, It Frees Me to Make More of It

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But also this technology is not for the faint-hearted.

But I love this technology! Let me tell you all about it.

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At no time have I been tempted to use this technology to do my art or writing for me; I'm simply not interested in replacing the things I enjoy doing with computer output. My only interest is in how these tools can make the monetization, marketing, and outreach parts of my workflow less intrusive and time-consuming. And I had gotten into a fairly useful groove with the build/code tools when agents exploded onto the scene, and I have been one-shot by these things. They are amazing. The promise of this technology is finally opening up and it works just like I hoped the Star Trek future would work.

All About Agents (or at least, All About The Parts I Care About)

If most AI/SI use is chat-based on websites you have to visit, and next level use is on desktop tools that allow you to point that prompt-directed behavior at your local environment (files on your computer, for example), agents start combining these environments and acting on your behalf in the way a human assistant might—autonomously. It's hard to imagine how to wield this power when so many frontier users are technologists; the average person doesn't need to deploy teams of recursively looping coding agents to ship multiple builds of a piece of software. The enormous businesses looking into these tools also don't have the use case a single-person artist/writer business does. So I have (once again!) leaped into the deep end to find out what I can use agents for, choosing Grok Bot for my platform because I was already partially committed with Grok Build, and because it comes with my X blue check subscription.

So, you say, what are you actually doing with this thing, Jaguar?

Here's a sample of some of the things I've asked my Grok Bot team to do for me:

  • Marketing: "I haven't participated in any Bookfunnel newsletter promos lately. Can you find a few useful ones coming up, sign me up for them, create landing pages for those promos, and create a couple of freebies to give them… uh, just take the first short story from Claws and Starships, make a separate epub out of it, give it a cover with this piece of artwork, and upload it." (Then I went to eat a snack on the couch. Ten minutes later, I checked and all of it was done. I was signed up for two promos, one on found family and one on aliens, and the epub was up and all the landing pages ready. The bot even scheduled a reminder for early November so I wouldn't forget to mention it in my newsletter.)
  • Kickstarter: "I want to run another sticker Kickstarter. Please set up my project. Pick out the magnets and stickers I have a lot of, for my add-ons. Make all the tier graphics and rewards. Upload all that. Read my prior Kickstarter campaigns and figure out how I usually write my Story section and leave an outline for me that says stuff like 'Jaguar, usually you say this and then this, and then you have a section on this.' Check daily for sticker deals from customstickers and magnet deals from stickermule. When you see one, tell me, and if I okay it, take the graphic I just scanned, send it to them, and buy the deal."
  • Book Distribution: "I need to update Spots the Space Marine (the book that took on Games Workshop and won!) on my various sites. Take the ebook epub and upload it to D2D and Bookfunnel; then upload the paperback PDF to Bookvault, wait for validation, tell me if I need to adjust the cover dimensions, and then adjust the cover dimensions and show me the pdf before upload." (Unfortunately, Amazon is not playing here. So frustrated with Amazon: my one last remaining issue.)
  • Subscription/Socials: "This is my Patreon/Locals upload schedule. When I write these features, please crosspost them to both platforms and schedule them on the right day of the week. Also, find my X movie and tv reviews and start cross-posting them to Substack. Also I don't want to handle Instagram. Every Monday find a handful of photos or sketches and ask me to pick some. I'll tell you the comment/description I want you to post with them, then cross post those for me. Oh, and I hate videos but I have all this long form video content on Youtube, please turn it into reels/shorts, listen to my audio commentary during those livestreams and pick out good comments from me for captions, add them, and put royalty-free classic music on them for background. Then schedule those for posting too." (Now on autopilot, I just pick and talk about things on Mondays: fun!)
  • Accounting: "I just got charged for this and I have no idea what it is, go figure it out and report back."
  • Customer Service: "This customer needs a new download link and a shopify coupon for the sequel to this book, put those together for me and give me the codes; open that email for me so I can hit respond and write them a reply."
  • Coding the Game: "It's been a while since we've been able to work on the game! Let's have some fun! The feature I drafted at the beginning of the year? Sandbox that and tell me whether it works. Then back up the current production environment, ship it to live, and update the github project."

A lot of this happens away from the keyboard. I can't explain how important this is, because after forty+ years of working at a keyboard, I find sitting at a desk physically painful and anything I can do to mitigate that issue allows me to save my keyboard time for things that matter, like writing fiction, or in fact, this article. I walk and talk to Grok Bot on my phone: literally, with my voice, just dictating what I need, then responding to its questions verbally. "Do this. Make sure it includes this. Check with me; looks good; go."

I've even gotten updates from my bot team while I'm out: running errands, it pings me now and then: "You got an email about this. Do you want me to fix? It would require this action on my part." "Yes, please, just handle it. Say this."

As you've probably guessed, getting this level of functionality from agents requires you to trust it, and the extent to which you trust it is the extent to which it can offload tasks from your shoulders. My bots connect to almost twenty websites, either as collaborators (the bots have an email address they use to sign up for services) or via APIs or other connectors provided by that business; it has a vault for secure storage of credentials and other information. And while I have the toggle on that requires it to ask me before doing anything potentially dangerous, you do have to trust that it's going to ask you, and that it shares your conception of danger.

Needless to say, I have been especially rigorous about backups lately.

It also takes some time to do set-up; I know the first week and a half or so was a lot of trial and error, training (which happens verbally: me telling it what I want and don't want, or sometimes in some cases, feeding it my books/articles about business to teach it how I like to work!). That first week or two you'll probably feel like a headless chicken and you won't sleep much (I didn't!) but once things are mostly set up, any new thing you tackle can be slipped easily into the pile of existing routines.

Lastly, talking of issues and challenges… there will be people who boycott you for the use of these tools, and you have to decide how much you want to engage with them, or how much you choose to disclose what you're doing—because I guarantee that a lot of people are using these tools and simply not telling anyone. I'm putting my use cases out there unapologetically to help make it more acceptable for other creative types to test the waters.

Because these tools are awesome.

Last Monday, after my "CEO Meeting" with my team of agents, during which I'd handled all the week's subscription posting, all the week's socials posting, checked on the health of the business ("what were sales like? Mailing list signups?") and made decisions about code updates I wanted to ship, I sat on the couch and realized… the only thing I needed to do that day was draw and write fiction.

That's it.

All the nagging stupid business tasks that I wrote an entire book telling artists they would have to embrace if they wanted to monetize, all of that was handled for the week. Moreover, if some new thing came up, I would be able to dispatch it swiftly; no more having to block out a half hour to three hours to wrangle some stupid website to upload or adjust or fix some stupid fiddly bit I didn't care about. I've often wished I had the money to hire an assistant. A team of assistants would have been even more magnificent. But training and paying them had been beyond my reach and yet, now… now I have a team. It costs me $30 a month, never sleeps, and never gives up as long as I don't. And it leaves me alone to do the art.

The feeling I had then was indescribable. Like a weight that had been on my shoulders for decades had simply… vanished. I felt like I was floating. You mean I can just do the stuff I LIKE? I can just draw? Write?

I can't even tell you what it's like. It's so staggering that instead of lunging to take advantage of this novel situation, I've been drifting through the past few days, as if I'm waiting to wake up. When it finally strikes me that this is real, and this is now my life, well… who knows what will happen next...!

(Actually my Jokka game players know, because in the past few days I've started updating the game like someone with forty coders on Red Bull and midnight pizza to throw at it. Lol)

If you skate around online you'll find there are a lot of people using Grok Bot to improve their normal lives, doing everything from making boring service calls for them to canceling unused subscriptions to keeping track of multiple kids' school updates and schedules. It's vastly improving their lives as well. My needs are a little more esoteric, but I admit I just made myself a personal shopper agent to hunt deals for me. Christmas is coming and I need to get on the gift list.

But wait, Jaguar, isn't all this perilous? Doesn't it hallucinate? Are you checking to make sure it's not buying twenty thousand dollars' worth of machine parts and shipping them to your house to build itself a robot body to murder you with?

Yes. Sometimes (but not as often anymore). Yes. No I'm not worried. At least, I'm not worried more than I am with any novel technology that I need to doublecheck before using. But if you had as much experience compensating for an unreliable brain as I do, you'd be relieved when the machine turns out to be wrong less often than you are.

Jaguar, This Was Long, Please Sum Up Also Please Tell Us That You're Really Writing Stuff And Not Using AI To Write It

Yes, it's really me typing out all the stuff. I like writing/talking/drawing, and I like even my marketing copy to sound like I came up with it (even if marketing copy is the most generic stuff in the universe… it's actually harder for me to write than things like this, to make it sound like a human being wrote it!). And my friends, I have so, so much work to share. I can't even. I have thousands of pieces of art, so many essays, poems, books… I don't need the computer to write anything for me. I just have to tell it, "Find all my pictures of Jahir and Vasiht'h from Mindtouch and pick the one most relevant to this topic for me to talk about." And I'm off to the races.

The 'too long, sum up' here is: this is the life-changing technology I was hoping for, the thing that might compensate for my daffyness, the fact that I forget everything, and the fact that my body can't take the abuse it could in my twenties. This is the technology that's turning the mountains of scanned artwork and scattered Word files and abandoned websites ("Go to the Wayback Machine and download all the snapshots from this url and save them") into things I can find again… and share!

This is week three of me figuring this stuff out and I am still in awe. My science fiction future is arriving! And I'm here to see it!

But yes, that's my overview. If you have specific questions, feel free to ask.😊

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October 05, 2026
Quick State of the Jaguar!

I had a lovely birthday! And I'm looking forward to a productive October. I thought I'd catch you up, bullet-point style, on what I'm up to:

  • Tomorrow the Tea vs Coffee (and Galaxy) dragon kickstarter ends! (Last chance!) So I'll be doing coloring sheets and fulfillment for that.

  • Finalized the paperback edition of the re-issue of my fantasy short collection, which I'll have a formal launch for, probably next week.

  • It's been a month, so it's time to edit Kherishdar's Witness! I re-read it yesterday and made two pages of notes of things that need adjustment, but it's much closer to ready than I thought. Early November for that, probably.

  • I have only 31 big sketchbooks left to scan for the gallery! Which is at 9466 images. I'll easily hit that 10K I predicted, and after that it'll be time to start on the small sketchbooks and loose artwork, and continue my annotations.

  • Reminder that the new, winter seasonal gallery code is pinned here for subscribers at the $5+ level. Go collect and apply!

  • Related, I'm back to daily drawing, and am glad to have restored that practice. Thank you, discord members, for your frequent prompts/requests, which I fall back on when I can't think of anything.🧡

  • I'm gearing up to start serializing Coracle 2: Squire Marda here, probably near the end of October. More on that when I'm ready!

I see a lot of you are free subscribers; I hope you'll consider joining the paying patrons! I post weekly (usually 2-3 times a week), which is (I'm told) a lot more than most subscriptions. And it would be a big help to me with all the projects I want to conquer going forward! Including having the money to travel to at least one con a year to meet more of you in person. Even a dollar a month helps and unlocks almost all the paid content, and $5 a month gets you unlimited access to the 9000+ image stardancer gallery. Please consider buying me a cup of coffee if you're not already.

And to all my paying patrons, many of whom have been with me for decades, know that I appreciate you, as always. You are the pillars of the Jaguar tribe.🧡

More to come!

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